Sunday, August 23, 2009

Ready or Not...

I haven't been posting much lately, primarily because the August heat is making both my body and my mind feel very sluggish. I don't tolerate heat and humidity well at all. I sweat a lot, even in the air conditioning, and it really saps my energy. I find that I get very little accomplished during the summer. When the weather cools down in September, I start to feel alive again. This weekend, however, I experienced a few small "shocks to the system" that reminded me that life moves inexorably forward, regardless of whether or not my mind is ready for it.

At the bris of my niece's new son, I looked at my beautiful young sister and realized that she is now a grandmother.

My teenage son revealed to me that he had met his first love over the summer.

I found out that my ex-husband had recently gotten remarried.

I realized that my 12 year old daughter is now taller than my mother is.

I feel like I'm standing still while the world rushes right past me.

12 comments:

Jewish Side of Babysitter said...

That is a lot going on. Yes the world does move on whether we are ready or not. Sometimes that's a good thing, because it wakes us up to move along too, and gives us the push.

Mazel Tov on becoming a great aunt!

Lvnsm27 said...

I sometimes feel like that, like I'm a watcher while things happen

Elliot Jaffe said...

I am so not a summer person, but since I live in Israel, I have learned to deal. Remember that September and fall weather are close at hand.

Embrace change. Its going to happen and you might as well take pleasure from the things that happen in your life. It sounds like things are moving forward in positive directions. Move with them and do excellent things for yourself. As Bill and Ted said: Be excellent to yourself and party on dudes!

ilanadavita said...

I recognize the feeling... and sympathize.

tesyaa said...

Whoa. You knew your sister was about to become a grandmother. You probably figured your 12 year old would surpass your height sooner or later. But numbers 2 and 3 are shockers.

Jack said...

Summer is my favorite time of year. I am always sad when it ends.

I'll be in shock when my any of my younger sisters become grandmothers. It won't matter if they are 40 or 120, it will still seem strange.

hadassahsabo said...

sending you hugs. mazel tov on becoming a great aunt.

Eees said...

I find my perspective on life very disconcerting too as of late. My oldest is about to turn 16, the age I was when I met his dad. His interest in girls and obtaining a driver's license is...SCARY.
I constantly mention that, when I contemplate my parents' ages, I think of them as being in their 30's. Considering that I know that, IY"H, I'll be turning 38 erev Chanukah, this obviously cannot be the case..yet I still tend to think that way. It's odd to think that my mother's 60th birthday is IY"H approaching soon, and that my dad will IY"H be 64 in less than a week.
We aren't at the grandparenting stage just yet, but I'm sure it will be here before we know it.
Time really seems to be rushing by here too.

SuperRaizy said...

Thank you all for your comments. Truthfully, I'm a bit surprised because I thought that the fact that my ex-husband got remarried would have garnered more attention than my discomfort with hot weather. But I guess you never know... ( :

Eees said...

Does he have anything to do with his children? Also, do they know, and, if yes, what do they think about it?

SuperRaizy said...

Eees-
He hasn't seen or spoken to the kids in over 5 years.
They don't know about it and I really don't want them to know right now. It will just upset them needlessly.

Eees said...

If he hasn't had the decency to have anything to do with his kids, they definitely agree with you on not saying a word (for now). I'm sorry that they have been deprived of a loving involved father, because they are wonderful kids and definitely deserve better.
Lucky for them, they have a mom who cares deeply about them and is doing a wonderful job all by herself.